It hit me as I was staring out the window at the falling rain. This question…Am I faithless?
Now, do I have faith? Yes. Do I live my life as if I had faith? Well…Kind of. I rest in my skill set, I develop relationships, I do the things expected of me, I trust that God is using me and will continue to use me, and I am certain of those things unseen – and yet today, just an ordinary day, that question hit me. Am I faithless?
You see I play it safe now. Life has become safe. Not necessarily easy, but safe. There is no risk, no trust required – just routine.
It wasn’t always this way. I wanted to risk big, dream big, do the impossible, jump off the cliff into the raging river below and trust that God was going to do something significant through my audacious faith. And you know, I’ll still want those things – but slowly over the past year and half I have fallen into the chasm of routine…and I didn’t even realize it.
What good is faith if we merely speak of it but don’t live it? Why should God bless our churches if we are unwilling to leap? Why should we expect to become better teachers, leaders, or planters, if we just play it safe? How can we live the adventure if we are unwilling to take the necessary risks? Looking at scripture the stories we see are filled with risks. Situations or callings that are so audacious they could only come from God.
To the church?
Can you honestly say that you are stepping out in faith, that you are living the adventure, that you are jumping off the high dive and taking risks that you know can only come from God? I can’t and it’s my own fault. So today I write this to confess that I, Christopher Lytle, am faithless. I am a restless wanderer who has settled into the things known instead of chasing the unknown, but no longer…
God, let it begin.